thinking aloud not thinking clearly all runs together like watercolors in the rain like songs sung in Russian like similes, and touches every nerve, every synapse finding concentration difficult labored, disjointed the beginnings of sleep stealing in from the edges and morning approaching surely and the half-open, drowsy days of spring lurk ahead in the shadows like muggers in alleys and the symbols lose meaning and the simple cold truth is i need to be alone now awaiting further orders please advise -- 6th March 1997